O God of Mine

Does the faithfulness of God mean anything to you? I mean can you look back on your life and see just how good is He is to you? Can you really see to the depths of what God’s faithfulness means? If nothing pops into your head at once, I really pray that God will privilege you to really experience His faithfulness. It is not just some attribute that we know God has because the Bible tells us so. To me, faithfulness has become the most outstanding and graceful part of His divine being. But do not look at it as if another human being can have it. God’s faithfulness is FAR BEYOND anything we could ever posses to have. FAR BAYOND.
The past 4 months God has been teaching me what it really means to lose control of my life. He has taught me this in an extraordinary yet challenging and hard road. I cannot emphasize just how hard it really has been. I have wrestled, fought, and been so stubborn with God on so many issues. God has brought about countless situations for me to learn the depths of His faithfulness and how to give up control of everything I have. Now that I look back, I have no idea how it can even be possible for God to be faithful and patient with me while learning these lessons. He knew from each stubborn prayer or cry how all of it was for the good of me when I could not and would not see it in that way.
A scripture passage I was given that I didn’t understand during this process was Psalm 127. Not a typical Psalm one reads during church or just even on your own, but God specifically gave this one to me.
“Unless the LORD builds that house, those who build it labor in vain. Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, eating the bread of anxious toil; for he gives to his beloved sleep.”
I couldn’t see it at the time, but God was proving his faithfulness to me, even in my most stubborn moment towards him. If the Lord builds the house, we do not labor over it in vain. If we let the Lord watch over the city, we do not stay up in vain while doing our job. Do you understand that we can do nothing in vain if we give up control and let God take care of our situations! Our work and toil is NOT gone to waste or done in vain. Yes, we may have to build the ‘house’ or ‘watch’ over the city, but God has created our lives to work out in that way and all of our work and toil is done IN his glory and not for ourselves. He rewards his beloved with sleep. You have no idea how much physical sleep is a gift from God in my life. In yours it may be rest from a situation or anything else. In some form, his gives rest for the work we do because he is faithful to you and me. Stop trying to control your situations. You may not know right away what to do or where to go and He may not tell you in the time you want, but I can guarantee you this: God will be faithful in your life, in and out of every situation, if you just learn to let go.
Learning to give up control has been a roller coaster to say the least. Yet, I cannot even begin to explain the riches of not being in control and letting God’s plan unfold for me in every area of my life. I have finally learned just how I can do this in a day to day walk with God. It starts small with one decision and emotion here and there and then it becomes so much easier with the bigger realities that I daily face. Of course Satan endlessly reminds me of my sin or weakness, but it’s a battle God is teaching me how to win. “Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!” Psalm 34:8. ‘Taste’ in the Hebrew language actually means to ‘experience’. So may you experience and see how good and faithful and sweet God is. O God of mine.