Ready or Not

Goodbyes are a killer. They really are. I have never ever really had to say goodbye to anyone before because there is always a time when I am pretty sure I will see them again. But now I have to do this who goodbye for real thing over and over and over. I don’t like it.

I feel like my whole life is changing. My parents are moving out of the house here in Atlanta this weekend and I leave for Hollywood June 4th. I am not sure I am ready to leave yet. It would be so different if I had Atlanta to come back to when I get back in August, but I don’t. Charleston is the new home sweet home. I have lived in the same house for 18 years this summer. Moving is a huge deal for the whole family right now.

You never really know what you’ve got until you lose it. Such a cliché phrase but it the truest thing ever. I had a couple of final goodbyes today when I went and visited some friends and HATED it. One in particular was really hard because that person just had a place in me that I have never had with anyone else. Memories are all you have got when you leave and you can’t hold on to those too well.

You want to know what I really think it is though? Fear. I think goodbyes are so hard because part of it is the fear that we won’t have it as good as we do already. Its like the world is ending and the good part is all over. But the more I think about it that’s so not true! God would never pull you out of a season of your life then make the rest of it “not as good”. I refuse I believe that the God who works for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28) still has the best yet to come for me or for you. I just have no idea what that is yet and that is why this part of my life is so hard to say goodbye to.

I really am excited beyond measure for Hollywood. I still think about it and cannot get over the fact that God has finally called me to Hollywood for a time when ever since I was in second grade that is where I want to be. I have no idea if I will eventually live there or not, but right now I would like to. NO ONE is ever to far from the grip of the grace of Jesus and those in Hollywood need to know that. I just don’t know what to expect and I’m nervous about it. Yet it is a good fear. Im growing up and moving forward in life. That is the real scary thought.

May you be excited about the road close at hand for you and may you remember what you have learned in Jesus and take it with you as you move on, ready or not.